I’ve been noticing how my mind is purposely looking for grist for the mill. Albeit a special kind of grist. A torturous one. For instance, I am in the bathroom…
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It seems that in the course of my lifetime, every so often all kinds of crap gets thrown my way. Not much I can do about that. It just happens.…
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When I was a young woman, I wished for a partner with the same taste in things. Like what kind of furniture we love, what type of clothes, music, art,…
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I have my moments. Like good moments. Moments I can look back on feeling neither embarrassed nor proud. Moments I'd like to replicate. Like, for example, my encounter with the…
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... if everybody behaved just the way I wanted them to? If everyone around me was just an absolute pleasure to live with? Then I could comfortably lean back in…
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At times I find it hard to discern the difference between a situation from my opinion about it. Something happens, and before I know it, my mind escalates it out…
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Every parting is a little death. When a dear neighbor moves away. When my niece flies back to Germany at the end of her summer vacation. When I walk home…
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We are punished by our sins, not for them. (Elbert Hubbard) When I read that, I could literally hear my mind come to a screeching halt: Wait!What?We do not get…
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Sometimes I just can’t see what is really there. Like when the Chef I am working with gave me the following note: I was profoundly convinced it read: “Pecan Wasted…
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As a child, I loooooved Easter egg hunts! The possibilities were excitingly endless. Colored eggs and chocolate bunnies could be found in places where eggs and chocolates do not belong.…
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Sometimes there isn't enough paper in this world to list all the things going wrong in my life. Like the other day, when a brake light warning message came up…
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… and at other times not. Or rather, I am either completely unable to forgive or I don't see a need to forgive at all. For me “forgiving” only exists…
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I am paying far too much attention to bad things while wishing for good things to happen in life! It's not just the Internet, gossip or the news. It also…
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Like “I will be less controlling.” Believe it or not, that's a really tough one for me. Because naturally, unavoidably, indisputably I am soooo much better at EVERYTHING than anyone…
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And that someone would be … (drumroll) … ME! How so? Well, sometimes I have a tendency to turn completely innocent situations into tragedies. (In)conveniently, I can't come up with…
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Have I ever been furious with someone? You bet!Why?Well, let's roll the camera backwards .... just for funsies.Let's say, I am moody because John made fun of me. John, on the other hand,…
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Have you ever had someone or something kinda sorta explode in your face? I have. Let me start with the “something” before I get to the “someone.”I have a friend who can never ever…
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I used to swear whenever something went wrong. Then came 9/11/2001. I heard about people who had been furious about missing their planes … until they learned that missing their planes had saved their lives.That…
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Back in the days, I mean like EONS ago, I shared an apartment with another student. One day I came home and he welcomed me with anguish and despair in his eyes.“What happened?” I…
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… beat yourself up for something?I did – just the other day. Wasn't the first time either. As usual, it came as a Voice in my head spouting out all kinds of invectives.Listening to that Voice,…
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Some years ago, we adopted a dog. Sherman. Luckily he was already six years old and knew how to be a dog and live with humans because we sure needed some training in…
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The other day I was waiting for a parking space. I was sitting in my car, trying not to be in anybody's way, while patiently watching a Beamer sloooowly pull…
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You might not be able to relate, but for me, not getting my way is more of a rule than an exception. Worse yet, “my way” has no entertainment value whatsoever. The “highway,”…
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... not just in trying times, but in general. An example might be when a co-worker asks me to follow up on a complaint. Strictly speaking, that would be part…
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Ready for this? My husband has a knack for tidying stuff away in the kitchen. In general, that's a good thing even though at times he stores away meals I…
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That sounds so weird, I can't even begin to describe how difficult it is for my brain to rewire itself to this “new normal” and to find ways to act accordingly. I huddle…
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Lately I have been thinking about the speck that we see in our brother’s eye while we don’t see the beam in our own. That is from the Bible, of…
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